as we get more and more into marathon season and races come and go, along with those races comes the ups and downs of it all. the celebration of accomplishing our goals and crossing the finish lines, but also the heartache and disappointment that comes when we don’t. not every part of racing season is great, happy and cheerful. there is definitely the other side of it all.
not every race is going to go as planned and not every race is going to be “the” race. if you have been reading this blog for a while, you know i know about this part of racing very well. we train our hearts, legs, mind and bodies for months for one big day. sometimes it comes together and it’s magical and things just click. sometimes we have to work and push harder than we ever thought possible. sometimes something goes wrong and you can blame one particular thing. then sometimes there are those other races where you can’t figure out what went wrong at all, but you just know there was something wrong.
i definitely have had all those races mentioned above and i think the last one is the hardest to deal with. not having something in particular like an injury or weather or bad training to blame. it was just a bad day. all those months and all that work and the bad day came on race day. there is nothing we can do to prepare ourselves for that day and there is nothing we can do to change how it went. i know a few people, both bloggers and non bloggers, who have experienced those races in the last few weeks, and i can sympathize completely and my heart hurts for them knowing what they are going through.
i often wondered why eugene had to happen the way it did. i wondered if i would ever gain perspective on that race, if i would ever find my running heart again. that race broke me down and exposed every insecurity i ever had in running, but after time it also gave me fight. it gave me the fire to fight in mile 23 of CIM last year and it gave me the absolute best feeling in the world when i finally crossed that finish line in under 3:40. everything was worth it in that second.
it has also given me the ability to chat with my fellow runners, to feel their pain, to sympathize with them. i would never wish those feelings on anyone, but it’s just part of our sport. if we set easy goals we know we could achieve without a problem, it wouldn’t feel so good when we did achieve them. we challenge ourselves and push our limits and sometimes we reach them, but sometimes we surpass them.
one thing i have told each person i have talked to or emailed with is do not give up. if there is anything i learned last year after fighting for my goal, it is do not stop trying. no matter how many times it takes, don’t stop believing in yourself and do not give up on your goal. it will happen if you want it badly enough. there will be another marathon, another training cycle and sadly more bad races, but those good ones make every second of those bad ones worth it.
we all are just waiting for that perfect race to let our secret out… because we all have our own secret awesomeness and with enough hard work and dedication we can show it to everyone else that is watching.
8 – 11 miles with 1 mile, 2 mile, 1 mile at slower than 10k pace (4 and 7 minute recovery)
i decided to make this more like goal 15k (7:34) – 10mile pace (7:38)… faster than half marathon, slower than 10k. since i have a half marathon coming up i figured running a little bit faster than goal pace would be good but not running too hard to tire my legs out.
i had jury duty all morning and afternoon but i was finally dismissed after a very close call to being selected. i got out of my comfort zone of the relatively flat trails and went on my rolling hill route to get some of this done. i am always very set in certain ways and routes for any sort of pace workout, but i broke through that today and still ended up hitting everything on target.
after a long warm up i got into the fast stuff.
1 mile: 7:37
2 mile: 15:14 (7:37, 7:37)
1 mile: 7:34
i guess my legs liked that 7:37 pace today
i finished off with a couple cool down miles and called it a day!
11.0 miles/1:31:57/8:21 avg pace