lately i haven’t been quite *there* mentally when i go to track. for whatever reason i just kind of lost my fire that i had towards it at the beginning of the year. i go through the motions, get the workouts done, but haven’t quite been pushing myself like i was earlier this year, or at least i haven’t felt like it. i just feel slow, like it’s always hard and i am never thrilled with how i do.
it could be the newness wore off so i am not seeing as big of improvements? it could be it’s been hot with being summer time and that just makes it seem harder? it could be i am just going through a mental slump towards it? who knows really.
last night i was hoping that after having two weeks off of the track i would find my fire. it was much cooler than it has been, i was coming off a day of rest, i was hoping all the stars would align so i could have a good workout.
i warmed up for a couple miles, did drills with the team and lined up to get started.
workout: 3×1600 with 400 jog in between
1 – 7:14 this feels pretty good, not going all out but pushing hard, but 1600s are long! happy with this split… let’s keep them here.
2 – 7:20 i hate this, i don’t think i want to do track anymore. i am stopping after this one. why do i even come to these workouts?
really i pretty much considered stopping. i felt terrible and did not want to go anymore. i don’t know what it is but my mind just immediately went negative.
we regrouped and my friend that leads the workouts said “ok aron sub 7:14 on this one” in front of everyone. i laughed. he happened to be cooling down at this point, so when we started running again he was positioning himself not far in front of me. his gap would get a little bigger but it was still close enough that i didn’t want him to get too far ahead, that i was still chasing him. everytime we hit the lap he would call out my time and say something (although i couldn’t hear him at all with the wind), but i knew he was having me chase him and he was timing me. chris was doing his stretches at this point and would cheer for me each time i passed him.
the first couple laps i knew i was pushing harder than usual for mile repeats. the 3rd lap i knew i slowed down a bit. the 4th lap i was pushing really hard. i had no idea what my pace was going to be but i just was hoping it would be faster than 7:14.
i came around the last turn straight into the wind, put my head down, pumped my arms and gave it my all to the finish and looked at my watch.
3 – 7:08
i got a high five from my friend and caught my breath and started my cool down. he said i was running a 7 flat pace for all the laps except the 3rd one. just think if i would have held on just a little more, but i was still very happy with myself.
i think i found my track fire. i think i just needed a confidence boost, to know i could do it and now i know. it’s been a while since i have had a good mile repeat and gotten my last one as my fastest, so i think i have been doubting myself and i just need to have a little more faith.
i want to have all my repeats be that fast and wanting doesn’t get you anywhere if you don’t try and don’t work for it. i want to see a 6 at the beginning of one and i know i can get there if i keep on working. it’s not fun, it hurts, but you just gotta keep working hard and it will pay off, and that feeling at the end when you did do it is so worth it.
all that from one little mile.
total workout: 6.0 miles/51:21/8:30 avg pace